In the beginning, I didn't find Yahoshua the Messiah, He found me. Through the many years of my disobeidiance and rebellion, there was always an invisible "something" that pulled and tugged at me, trying desperately to snatch me away from a destructive lifestyle followed by most everyone I knew. I truly didn't know that I was in rebellion, I thought that I was living life lke everyone else; and the majority of so-called christians that I knew were the most pathetic of hypocrites. Their examples were thin at best, and not very inspiring.

Now without going into autobiographical detail, I at last started going to church, for one of the most common reasons a young, self-willed man goes to church; to be around a girl.

So even this had a desperately selfish motive to it. But while I was going there, enjoying her feminine company, something most unexpected happened. I heard the words of the Book, the bible; and the more I heard of these words, the stronger and more powerful that mysterious "something" became. The words of Scripture were changing me, penetrating my insufferable exterior, working their way throughout my being, until finally, long story short, one night I realized what a wretched little creature I had been and what a horrible little lump I was before my Creator. So it was, that I fell upon my knees and entered into a covenant with Yahweh God. Oh, I didn't know His Name then, or really what it was that I was doing, but still I gave myself, unconditionally to Him, to do with as He chose, if only He would lift the burden of my sinfullness from upon me. There He touched me, not at a church altar, but by my bedside, and as I arose I literally, physically felt a freedom, a lightness come upon me that I had never felt before, and for the first time in my life, joy, actual untainted joy was release in my being.

It was then that I knew, actually knew, that God was real. But more than that, I knew that I was His and His alone. For the first time in my life I had purpose and meaning; and so did His book.

I began to devour the Word of the Ever Living God, and I have not stopped. As the months turned into years, I was given opprotunities to serve Him. First as a sunday school teacher. Here I was struck by the same lackadaizacal [in Georgia this is a word] attitude I had once had. Rather than just trying to teach these youths some bible stories, I burned to make them see what I had seen, to experience the glory of His Word.

Sometimes it worked.

As that year grew into two, then three, I was given opprotunities to preach, and so I devoured the Word all the more. But then a most curious thing happened. I began to realize that the purity of the Words of life were getting lost in practical application. In other words, there was a great gulf fixed between what I was reading and what I was observing in churches, not just my own but every church I had ever been in.

There were, of course, many people dedicated to the general precepts of christianity, but there was still "something" missing, in my own life as well. What I finally learned was that I was looking directly at scripture, just as it was written, without letting someone else transform it into something else entirely [silly me], which was exactly what the bulk of the christians I knew were doing. Most people's spiritual walks aren't between them and their God, but rather between them and a multitude of teachers and preachers.

Well, I thought, this will never do. I will have to change all this. So I embarked on a one man crusade to bring about a revival to christianity.

Can you guess how that worked out? It seems it's very hard to change the world, when the bloody world doesn't want to be changed, and when I myself had a great deal of changing still to do. How inconvienient.

Finally I walked away from church. I didn't know exactly what was wrong with churchianity [ although I was begining to develope some ideas ] but it was obvious that the church was very happy with the way that it was, and no fool boy preacher was going to change that.Now walking away from the church did not mean walking away from God, as much as some would like you to believe. No, I still was attempting to cultivate my relationship with the Creator I had made a covenant with years before. He taught me His Name, Yahweh, and the Name of my Messiah, Yahoshua. As time drug by He continued to open my eyes to many things. He set up roadsigns that led me deeper and deeper into His word and farther and farther from that curious gathering that called itself church. Finally, after many years, He led me to a teacher, who called me an Israelite. My spirit within me bore witness to his words, and soon I was learning the tenets of Christian Identity. With each new lesson I tried to disprove him, but found that I couldn't.

Like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, biblical truth began to come together in a way I had never dreamed. So many unanswered [ and according to most preachers I had ever heard, unanswerable] questions were finally answered, and I felt like I had been given the key to the universe. Finally I understood what was wrong in the church, besides not understanding who true Israel was and is, but also what the missing mortar was that could stabilize the whole structure.

The Law of Yahweh God. His immutable law. I had recognized that true holiness was what was missing from churchianity. This one concept, holiness, is hounded more than any other theme in all of scripture. But how did one attain holiness? And I had seen so many levels and definitions of holiness, which one was right? The answer-none of them.

Have you ever wondered how Yahweh God could make such stern statements throughout His word as " Without holiness shall no man see God", Be ye holy, even as I am holy", without giving us a concrete standard to go by?

Well He did give us a standard. The problem is we have been told over and over that the standard has been done away with; and when you have "teachers" saying such things, certain statements in the bible do " seem" to support that. The problem is that there are even more statements proving that the law has not been done away with. So what do most people do, when faced with such supposed contradictions? They improvise. Suddenly we are faced with such fictions as " the law of liberty", the "law of life", the "law of love", and the "commandments of Christ". While these things are to be found in scripture, they are not referring to different "new testament" concepts, but are simply different names for the same law that was from the beginning.

The judeo-christian church is in chaos. A state of anarchy runs amuk under the steeples of churchianity, because there is NO standard.They have nailed the standard to a cross, and now lawlessness reigns in it's absence.

" The law was a schoolmaster", they cry, but they have no clue what it taught.

What Yahweh's true Israel people need now more than ever, is His law. Without it, they just make up the rules as they go, sliding deeper and deeper into apostasy; the prey of every wolf and charlatan that comes along, unable to resist, not even sure if they should.

Not having a standard to hold themselves up to, an unimaginable list of sins take place among christians daily, not because of lack of commitment to their various creeds, but because of ignorance to to the laws they are repeatedly told are no longer valid.

Each day thousands upon thousands of people, caught up in a lawless religion, suffer the ill effects of their sins, not even knowing that they are in sin. Invariably, they are told that "the devil is trying them". While satan does wage literal war upon the saints, many people unknowingly have given him legal ground to abuse them by not abiding by the standard layed down by Yahweh in the beginning and upheld by Yahoshua the Christ.Satan doesn't even have to target a lot of people, they bring about their own suffering quite well enough.

How many diseases and sicknesses do Yahweh's people suffer under because of a lifetime of utterly disregarding the health and dietary laws laid down in scripture? How many parents have watched their children become the prey of the dregs of society because as a nation we have forsaken His laws regarding capital punishment? How many victims of crime see their malefactors go to prison, while they are left to put their lives and their homes back together all alone, because our courts do not enforce retribution? How many of us are forced to endure abomination after abomination because our nation no longer upholds God's laws of segragation? The nightly news is filled with stories of fianancial instability, a direct result of violating Yahweh's economic laws.

Our people and our nation suffer needlessly as a direct result of our having turned away the Divine Laws, and having done so, has rejected the standard that would keep us healthy, productive and free.